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i lowkey have a thing for people who i think dont fw me so i have an obsessive parasocial relationship with dr veritas ratio of the intelligentsia guild. my proof that he doesn't fw me is that i lost my 5050 5 times on his banner. e6 with 800 pulls. it could've been worse he probably felt bad for me. at 1.6 i didn't have the concept of a light cone so i pulled for his e1 instead and LOST MY 5050. as an average heterosexual man i'm really into pretty princesses who play hard to get so of course i got turned on.

my wife my love my beautiful princess. i want him as a lover or a mother or reluctantly as a mentor (reluctantly because i don't want to think about it anymore ever since my friends kept saying [insert DIFFERENT teacher names] is kinda like ratio. i'm killing all of you). i have problems that caused sever attachment issues and inappropriate depictions and desires to interpersonal relationships. thank god he doesn't have a choice in this relationship because he is not real and i am 意淫 final boss. lowkenuinely he would not fw me but then again, he is not real and i am, unfortunately.

arghhh i don't have any deep reason on why i like him so much (my mom my wife got in a car crash i hope she's ok). started playing hsr by around 1.1 and man this game boring as hell. my fav at that time was herta and she barely had any content in a while until 1.6. i was skimming the quest going herta herta herta where is herta

and then i got my ass beat at the debate session bc i skimmed everything and didn't read.

i started saving from around 2.3? after i pulled for e0s1 jade. i think it is actually fascinating how i actually managed to hold in and not pull for anyone other than big herta (my og fav that i must pull for). i had almost 500 pulls f2p by his rerun during 3.2 (forcing me to skip anaxa. i remember at first his banner was leaked to be in the first half so i went around telling people i could pull for both of them. he must have heard and didn't want me to pull for anaxa. 他心中有我.

i was genuinely crashing out because!!!! i had an exam the day after pulling!!!! why did i pull sybau!!!! . also i made my weird chemistry teacher who i hate but he's funny do a 10 pull for ratio. he got nothing.

true mvps are my friends who love me very much and helped me do exploration and learnt that i have. 0% exploration for a region. i actually hate doing exploration. i love my friends so so much whether it's those who helped me get pulls or the ones who offered to whale my way to e6 (please don't pay for my parasocialism). i hope the ones who i think find it endearing actually do or i might have to kill myself.